I'm fighting a bit of back to school depression. This was my first summer off in three years and it just flew by.
I graduated from the University of North Texas on Friday with my Master's in Library Science. I was even invited to join Beta Phi Mu, an honor's society, so I got to wear purple and white cords. I went really great with my
|On the road to Denton!|
|Me signing the book of awesome at the honor's society induction. Not visible: sparkly purple rhinestones on the pen.|
Today is my last day of freedom, so naturally I went on a job interview. I really really love my school. It is pretty and brand new, I picked out all of the books myself, I put them on the shelf, I loved it so much. But it is really far from my house. I was having to drop Daniel off at 6:30 in the morning so I could be to work by 7:30. I didn't always make it. And honestly, I never really found my niche with the adults in the school.
The librarian at my former school (that I had worked at for 5 years) resigned. As soon as he announced his resignation I got two Facebook messages, two texts, and an email from my former colleagues asking me to apply. I resisted. Trey told me that I needed to do what was best for my family. My drive would be 20 minutes now. I talked to my mom, sister, and friends.Then the librarian himself begged me to take over his library. He really wanted to know that it would go to someone that would care for it. He worked so hard. He was the entire reason I became a librarian. I resisted. Then I met for my weekly breakfast with friends. I am pretty sure that they decided to gang up on me ahead of time. They wore me down. I applied.
Then I freaked out.
I have this weird loyalty to anyone that will hire me. Like, I think I am such a bad interviewer that if they hire me it must be because they pity me, or they think they can mold me, not because I interviewed well. Yeah, yeah, I have issues.So I had this loyalty thing going on and I felt like I betrayed my principal because she hired me and now I was leaving. I know this is lame and nonsensical, but that knowledge doesn't make it go away.
I interviewed two hours ago. It was the best interview I have ever given and also the best one that has ever been given to me. And this figures, because it was all a formality. They already knew that they wanted me. My propaganda machine was working overtime. They probably hired me just so that people would shut up about me. OK, not really, but it is good to have friends.